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[19 Feb 2006|08:05pm] |
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good to see that live journal is alive and thriving.
I'm bored. I feel like loosing 10 pounds.
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[17 Dec 2005|05:10pm] |
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I find clarity in him. I find love with him. I am happy with him.
He is everything I need. There is nohing more I want.
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[07 Dec 2005|11:02pm] |
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Moving Back to Los Angeles in 3 days.
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[29 Nov 2005|09:44pm] |
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bitch please 2- eminem, dre, snoop dogg, nat dogg |
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roomates + attitude = me puting the smack down on those bitches.
fuck them and fuck their little sassy walks and their up turned noses.
They don't want to get mess with me, cause I have a hot temp and a bad attitude (when provoked enough).
and in this case I'm already on edge. if they point one more finger, one more accusation... i sware!!!!
I dare them to knock on my door. I'll slap them in the face with the attitude every LA girl is born with.
I don't have much to loose, I'm moving out in a week and a half anyhow.
on the less angry side....
I pulled a muscle running to catch the bus this morning. it hurts pretty badly. I can't look to the right. the pain shoots throgh my neck and down my shoulder blade.
but I can still fight if those roomates want it. all they have to do is say "bring it!"
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[16 Nov 2005|06:21pm] |
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I bought a new vest and a really cute beanie today.
retail theropy. god bless it.
mmmmm..... i love that hat. it keeps my head sooo warm.
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[08 Nov 2005|05:59pm] |
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I am fusterated.
I need more patience.
I feel tense.
I want a break.
I'm almost home. just 3 more hellish weeks of this school and I'm free. I've got rehearsal in an hour and a half. It's been too long since I've acted. It just isn't for me anymore; I don't feel like an actress.
But I'm going to do another damn 10 minute play because it might be my last chance to ever perform in front of people.
too bad.
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[26 Oct 2005|10:01pm] |
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I hate it when I can't find the fucking remote.
god dammit~
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[22 Oct 2005|06:45pm] |
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I'm watching the Titanic.
I'm probably gonna cry.
The opening credits is almost too much to handle.
oh, it almost feels like 1997 all over again.
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[17 Oct 2005|06:00pm] |
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I hate waiting. I hate it with a passion.
this is why I miss smoking cigarettes so much. it was something to pass the time. I miss smoking when it's raining.
:(
I want a cigarette.
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[14 Oct 2005|07:26pm] |
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freetime- kenna |
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I need the free time
I need the free time to get away from you
i need to runaway runaway runaway tooonight!!!
I love kenna, man o man. right now I just love everything.
love love love.
it makes me sick. :P
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[12 Oct 2005|08:53pm] |
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I had 3 midterms this week. I didn't kick their ass per say, but I did administer one hell of a beating.
I'm sending in my transfer applications tonight. ooooo goodie!
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[05 Oct 2005|07:54pm] |
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LA in 24 hours.
get ready mother fuckers!
but until then, I'm going to Applebee's with some old high school buddies.
sometimes old faces can be theraputic....
and sometimes they can make you wanna puke.
but that's not a factor here.
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[01 Oct 2005|06:49pm] |
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waiting- Over It |
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I need something new to play around with on the internet......
everything has gotten so boring. bleh.
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[30 Sep 2005|07:13pm] |
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I've taken to watching sappy romantic movies for the evening.
me and my monkey.
I love you monkey.
I love you soooo much.
<3
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[27 Sep 2005|09:50pm] |
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I can take advantage of college better now that I know what I want to do with myself.
I've got so many plans. I can just relax and let it all fall into place.
The mother fucking Family Guy DVD came out today. I'm so there.
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[11 Aug 2005|03:18pm] |
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I love you. I love you. I love you.
you have no idea.
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[09 Aug 2005|12:00am] |
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bad girl -Usher |
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I'm still alive.
But I'm very busy. I'm either at work or I'm with my boo.
I sleep when I can and eat when I can.
I barely see any of my friends. I only saw maggie for like 30 minutes; and that's cause I work 30 yards from her.
I think I'm ready to try school again. I've found a new faith, a new purpose.
I'm hungry again.
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[22 Jul 2005|01:28am] |
I think I'm a work-a-holic.
and I hate those online poker pop-ups. they can kiss my ass and go to hell.
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[15 Jul 2005|12:55am] |
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Why do I let him affect me like this?
Why does he always make me cry?
Step-dads' can be real jerks sometimes. I just never feel good enough in his eyes.
I don't think I ever will.
Everything he does seems to embelish his hatred for me:
The fights, the demeaning phone calls I get, and the lectures he gives me when my mom isn't paying attention.
I know I shouldn't let assholes like that affect me...
But it gets harder everyday I spend in this house. Everytime he yells at me for no reason. HE's always looking for a fight, always looking for a reason to shoot me down. I can never be happy in his company or he'll call me ungrateful, disrespectful and spoiled. No wonder I have low self esteem; I never feel like I deserve anything I own because my step-dad never forgets to remind me "whose the boss".
And he never forgets to remind me whose paying for my college education. I'm beginning to feel like the only reason I'm in college is cause he can afford it, not like I'm smart or anything like that.
I need out of this house and away from him.
step-dads' suck.
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[07 Jul 2005|01:24am] |
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I haven't seriously updated in a while. This wont be a serious update.
Summer is the best time of year because, in this pleasently warm time of the year, all the stress from the last 3 seasons disipates and leaves me feeling refreshed and free.
GAP called me back for a job interview. I'm excited cause then I'll have a weekend job and some money coming in to help pay for my housing and my accident. There's just a lot of presure from my parents to make some money of my own and I'm not even sure if I'm getting paid for my work with this play. I'm assuming they are paying me per performance and if they aren't, I'll have this job at the GAP and that will get my parents off my back.
At the moment I'm watcing "Mind of Mencia" with Carlos Mencia; he's outrageous. I love him.
He's got to be one of the funniest men on earth.
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